The Whole Story

First time around with my pregnancy I thought I was doing pretty good, or what I thought was okay. I had a few bad migraines that landed me in the ER along with a back injury. Not so bad so I thought. I also had Gestational Diabetes. Which wasn't a problem what so ever. I went in for a normal doctors appointment on December 01, 2008 I was four Cm's dilated so they admitted me. My blood pressure was sky rocketing so they decided to give me pitocin which helped bring it down for a while. They then decided it was the best idea to give me an epidural. Which took my blood pressure to a normal range which was fine.... 36 hours later, I was tired, in pain, and still not progressing.

They decided that it was the best choice to go into a c-section because my pelvis wasn't doing what it was supposed to, and they thought the baby was going to be way to big to push out. I was so tired, didn't know what I was really getting into, so I went with it. I felt everything...cutting me open. Everything! I went into shock. I didn't remember much for at least 4 or 5 hours after the baby was born. I don't even really remember being able to hold him because of all the drugs I was on. Thank Heavens for pictures!!!

I was in there for a couple of days getting up and moving around. Then one day I got out of the shower in the hospital and I pretty much passed out. My fever was over a 104 and my normal body temp is 97.6 I was in and out of consciousness so they rushed me to ICU where my blood pressure was so bad, that I had doctors and nurses by my side at all times because they honestly didn't know if I was going to make it. My blood pressure was so bad I should have been dead. I was getting a little better so they let me see my son for 15 mins max....That went on for a couple of days!

I was feeling better so I was moved back down to the women's ward where I stayed a few more days then I was moved to the normal hospital unit. After a  week OR more I was able to go home, but I wasn't doing much better, I was actually feeling like it was getting worse. So they sent me home with a wet dry nurse. (someone who takes care of the cut when you are at home.) The infection was just getting worse when I was home....So they admitted me back into the hospital.

The infection was so bad that they said it was like punching a brick wall. They were going to opt for another surgery to remove all the infection, but they decided that I should take medication first. So I was placed back in the hospital for sometime, learning that the infection was caused by E-Coli. And the medication that I was put on was not working. My body was immune to it. So the whole time I had the infection from day three after my son was born wasn't working!!!!! I was so depressed. I remember my family by my side just staring at me like I wasn't even there...Not their faults, I remember the looks on their faces. I think sometimes that pain was worse then the physical pain I was feeling.

I was then told I would be able to go home but I would have a home health care nurse come see me at least three times a week to change my wound vac.....That lasted for two months....It was so terrible....

But I do believe I became a stronger person from this experience. I know the Lord does things for a reason, and I needed to learn and grow from this, and that is what I have done. At times it was hard...but I am truly grateful for the love and support I got. I feel so blessed to have been the one who could go through this, to hopefully help somebody else! Plus I did gain a beautiful, baby boy !!!! Who was beyond healthy and amazing! :D

So Thankful

This doesn't really have to do with my pregnancy. But it does have to do with my family. Especially my parents. As I went to this concert tonight I realized how high my standards are and how grateful I am for them. It was at The Buffalo Club. The concert was great....It was the people who we were surrounded by. I am not a drinker, nor am I a smoker. Don't get me wrong it is your choice to drink and smoke....that is your personal choice, and I'm not judging you what so ever! But it's just not for me! My parents didn't force us into doing anything nor have the judged us for our "finding" who we are, or the mistakes we've made. But they did tell us how important we are and how we need to be true to ourselves.

My husband and I did leave early because it's just not who we are, and we got really uncomfortable. I'd rather watch a movie with my husband and my little boy any day! It bothers me how many people go out and drink just to get drunk to have a "good time!" It always amazes me how many people say that they hate what their life is all about, how they hate where they are in life, who the people they hang out with, and how often they get ditched for other people. But these are the ones who are always out drinking their lives away wondering when things are going to change for them. Can't you find something better to do!?  I can't tell you how many people were drunk, how many people were using the F word every other word, how many girls were dirty dancing against your back with boobs and body parts touching you, and they didn't even care...What makes one want to live like that!?  You should know you are worth more than that!

I also wonder how many people are going to drive home tonight drunk or buzzed? Or how many people are going to wake up being hung over, having to go to work. I do get that I'm the one who went to the bar, knowing farewell what happens there....and yes I should of known how many people were going to be drinking. What I didn't know is how rude people were going to be, and how out of control people get, with one to many drinks. I don't drink for many reason, one is because of my beliefs, second is I've been through a lot these last two years, and any thing that could kill a healthy person would put me out with in one try. Also I just choose not to, it's not the life I want to live. But please don't get me wrong there are so many wonderful people who drink, and I have a lot of those people in my life, that I love and wouldn't give them up for the world, but it's just not for me. And I wish those people who go out to drink just to get drunk get help, because that truly is not the way to live. Anyways it was just an eye opener to me.

Ultra Sound

We went for the ultra sound........and found out we are having a baby.......hahahaha A BABY GIRL that is!!!! Not at all surprised, we had a feeling from the very beginning she would be a girl. We are extremely excited! Words almost can't explain! Her name will be Gracie McCrae! :)  She is a mover, oh my goodness does she like to roll, flip, kick, and punch! I was getting worried because I haven't felt her as much as I did my first child. But the explanation for that will come later! She is healthy and as happy as can be. It took us all together and hour in a half because she didn't want to do anything but move! It made it extremely complicated! But she has all the parts that are needed! And her heart beat is perfect! We have two pictures of her on ultra sound pictures because she was in a tight ball! She is breech but the nurse said she still has plenty of time to flip being i'm only half way there. 


Thinking about a vbac is looking not so hot, as of right now. I have another doctors appointment in a week to check my thyroid medication, along with going over what the nurse found in the ultra sound. Before you go get a ultra sound for a pregnancy anyways, you need to drink at least 32ounces and wait an hour in a half before you pee so that they can check the uterus and other things. She couldn't see anything....she could hardly see my bladder being full. Reason being is all the scar tissue from the previous c-section. Also why its been so hard being able to feel the baby a lot.  She said once the baby gets bigger and things start to pull upwards that she might be able to see the scar on my uterus, but as of right now she couldn't see it. She said she will let the doctor know all about her notes and he will tell me what is going on, and will be able to go more into depth about what the out come looks like. 


So I have a lot to ask the doctor, but i'm confident he will listen! I honestly can say I KNOW WHAT I WANT NOT TO HAPPEN WITH THIS PREGNANCY!!! :)