Just Keep Breathing.

You know, church is an amazing thing. I don't think with out the Lord in my life I wouldn't have the strength to move forward, or even on. I haven't been to church for about a month...Bad I know...Between my husband and son getting sick, then getting the news that Jake's Grandmother had breast cancer, then with myself coming down with walking pneumonia, and finding out that I have a mass on my shoulder that will need to be taken out. And I might have to take Insulin shots. All in one month, one right after another takes it's toll, and I didn't know how much I would need the words and songs spoken at church.yesterday. Some reason they were meant just for me. 

I was fine until the end of the song. This song has a deep meaning for me...and I cry all the time during the song...but for some reason this song hit me especially hard and I just completely lost it.......The song is called Nearer, My God, To Thee.  

1. Nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!
E'en though it be a cross that raiseth me,
still all my song shall be,
nearer, my God, to thee;
nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!

2. Though like the wanderer, the sun gone down,
darkness be over me, my rest a stone;
yet in my dreams I'd be
nearer, my God, to thee;
nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!

3. There let the way appear, steps unto heaven;
all that thou sendest me, in mercy given;
angels to beckon me
nearer, my God, to thee;
nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!

4. Then with my waking thoughts bright with
thy praise,
out of my stony griefs Bethel I'll raise;
so by my woes to be
nearer, my God, to thee;
nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!

5. Or if, on joyful wing cleaving the sky,
sun, moon, and stars forgot, upward I fly,
still all my song shall be,
nearer, my God, to thee;
nearer, my God, to thee, nearer to thee!

I know all I need to get through my trials are, to look to the Lord and ask for his help. There is always a reason for everything that happens in our lives, it's our choice to take care of them, or to hide and ask why is it always happening to me!? We should really be asking Why Not Me!

I know some people don't share my religion and that is perfectly fine, but ask me why I don't talk to people, or get help...The answer is...because not everybody knows what I am going through, not everybody will understand, I do talk to people, family, friends. ( Trust me with out them I would be nothing) but Sometimes you don't have anywhere to turn, to ask for more help, sometimes you don't know even what to say, or feel stupid for asking a question that might not make sense. Even though you may have the greatest support system, sometimes it takes more then a human figure to be there. That's why I turn to the Lord, I've gone through so much and I know it's because I needed it in my life, I needed to learn to have more faith and not to wonder. I turn to the Lord with things I can't handle, and by some miracle I'm able to get through them, and eventually know why I went through it.